Hi dear ones
We are starting a new month, which is great. Every month I make a new start. Today I weighted myself and took my measurements. Good in some areas and not so good in others. That is why each month is a new beginning and a re commitment. I have been working on my six in six manual today and writing down my intentions and declarations. It makes one think of what is really important to us in our lives and what we want to do with the rest of our life. Part of that is to write down at least five thinks that you are grateful for each day. This has caused me to really think about what I am grateful for. Even though I have some health issues I am grateful for the health that I do have. I am able to walk, think, plan and accomplish what ever it is I want to. I can work on my health issues and I have wonderful friends and family that inspire me take care of those issues in a natural loving way. I am taking six garlic pills a day instead of the blood pressure medication that the doctor gave me. What is interesting is that my blood pressure is the same as when I was taking the drug. The side effects from the medications for high blood pressure and diabetes is a dry hacky cough which I have had for awhile. I have only substitute garlic for seven days now but I do feel better. I am going to give this a month and see what happens. I am also on Chromium for diabetes. I still take the medication as well and we will see when I go in for a A1C how my blood sugar is. I am excited about the changes in my life.
In my favorite book "Feelings buried alive never die" the feelings surrounding diabetes is JUDGING self and others severely emotional shock, Joy of life gone. Those around blood pressure are feeling powerless in some area of life, feelings of deep anger, feelings of fear. I have come to realize that I judge myself very severely and that in many areas of my life I have felt powerless over situations. In the last ten years I have had a lot of anger about things that have happened. I must work on these things and as I do I will have complete health. My real challenge will be to not judge myself and find fault with all the things that I feel are failings. The other day I couldn't find any thing about myself that was beautiful, worthy, or appealing. Thanks to my wonderful daughter that has been my sounding board and full of wisdom helped me to see that I have lots of good qualities and I am a wonderful person. I have great talents that I have been blessed with and many more that I can develop. Self worth is so very important to us achieving success in every area of our life and yet most of us lack in this important quality, I know I sure have. The only thing that I regret is that it has taken me so long to learn that. However now that I have learned that I shall practice everyday to build mine and others self worth. This is life a wonderful journeyy and the excitement is great. I hope you all have a GREAT day.
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Saturday, September 24, 2011
A Beautiful Day
Hi my sweet friends,
Yesterday I had the pleasure of making a trip to Challis, Idaho. My daughter Colleen and her boyfriend Ken and I went to Challis to visit a Dr. John. It is a three hour trip and we were delayed because we ran into a rock slide and had to wait for them to clear the road. You travel from our home to Salmon, Idaho and then make a right turn and follow the Snake River to Challis. It is such a beautiful trip. Beautifully groomed fields and homes. A lot of the homes are right on the river and have boat access to the river. Colleen and I found a couple of homes that we really liked. There are also very old homes that no one lives in any more. One was vacant and falling apart and grass was growing on the roof. Old places and homes fascinate me and I wonder what the people were like that lived there and why they just left. I guess that is the genealogist in me. It is interesting seeing the old along side of the new.
It made me think of our lives. There I sat (the old) wondering how much my life was like that old house with grass growing on the roof, that use to be some one's home. There sat Colleen and Ken representing the new well groomed home. They are young and vibrant and full of live and dreams. Some of my dreams have been forgotten and put on the shelf and let life in general determine what happens to me. I decided that I needed to fix up this house and put a new coat of paint on her and start fulfilling some of those dreams that have not been completed. I am still able to move (a little) and I can still accomplish some things. I might move slower than I use to but Colleen and Ken inspired me to go for it. I guess that there are many times in our life that we have to be reminded of that we can do what ever it is that we want to do. I came home and found my favorite saying, typed it up in large print and posted it on my bedroom door and my mirror and anywhere else that I could see it. It goes like this: There is no chance, no fate, no destiny, that can circumvent, hinder or control, the firm resolve of a determined soul. I also received a email from my sister that had some wonderful sayings. I typed them up and posted them as well. Maybe they will help others so here they are: Obstacles don't have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb up, go through it, or work around it. Michael Jordan A stream when it encounters a huge boulder doesn't try to go over the top, instead it finds the path of least resistance and goes around it, eventually it builds enough force behind it that it becomes a river that can now move boulders.
All in all the trip was a wonderful and beautiful experience. The scenery was beautiful. The visit with the doctor was rewarding. Even though I had some sad reflections in the end I was inspired and lifted up and renewed with determination. Life is wonderful if we look for the beauty of it. Even though this body is aged it has seen alot and has alot of great memories and has many more to make and enjoy. Thanks to all my wonderful family that lift me up when discouraged and bless me in life. I have been blessed indeed. Love to all
Yesterday I had the pleasure of making a trip to Challis, Idaho. My daughter Colleen and her boyfriend Ken and I went to Challis to visit a Dr. John. It is a three hour trip and we were delayed because we ran into a rock slide and had to wait for them to clear the road. You travel from our home to Salmon, Idaho and then make a right turn and follow the Snake River to Challis. It is such a beautiful trip. Beautifully groomed fields and homes. A lot of the homes are right on the river and have boat access to the river. Colleen and I found a couple of homes that we really liked. There are also very old homes that no one lives in any more. One was vacant and falling apart and grass was growing on the roof. Old places and homes fascinate me and I wonder what the people were like that lived there and why they just left. I guess that is the genealogist in me. It is interesting seeing the old along side of the new.
It made me think of our lives. There I sat (the old) wondering how much my life was like that old house with grass growing on the roof, that use to be some one's home. There sat Colleen and Ken representing the new well groomed home. They are young and vibrant and full of live and dreams. Some of my dreams have been forgotten and put on the shelf and let life in general determine what happens to me. I decided that I needed to fix up this house and put a new coat of paint on her and start fulfilling some of those dreams that have not been completed. I am still able to move (a little) and I can still accomplish some things. I might move slower than I use to but Colleen and Ken inspired me to go for it. I guess that there are many times in our life that we have to be reminded of that we can do what ever it is that we want to do. I came home and found my favorite saying, typed it up in large print and posted it on my bedroom door and my mirror and anywhere else that I could see it. It goes like this: There is no chance, no fate, no destiny, that can circumvent, hinder or control, the firm resolve of a determined soul. I also received a email from my sister that had some wonderful sayings. I typed them up and posted them as well. Maybe they will help others so here they are: Obstacles don't have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb up, go through it, or work around it. Michael Jordan A stream when it encounters a huge boulder doesn't try to go over the top, instead it finds the path of least resistance and goes around it, eventually it builds enough force behind it that it becomes a river that can now move boulders.
All in all the trip was a wonderful and beautiful experience. The scenery was beautiful. The visit with the doctor was rewarding. Even though I had some sad reflections in the end I was inspired and lifted up and renewed with determination. Life is wonderful if we look for the beauty of it. Even though this body is aged it has seen alot and has alot of great memories and has many more to make and enjoy. Thanks to all my wonderful family that lift me up when discouraged and bless me in life. I have been blessed indeed. Love to all
Friday, September 9, 2011
A New Day
Dear Ones Welcome to a new day. I have started a new Isabody Beautiful Journal. It is always nice to make a new start on your life and your goals. I have recently seen some pictures of my weight loss progress and was surprised. I came to realize that I have lost 60 pounds in two years. I have also kept it off which is progress. Now for the next 60 pounds. I didn't put this weight on overnight. It came on through gradually with the stress that life offers and I bought into. I am gaining a new outlook and a better feeling about my self and who I really am. Thanks to my dear brothers and sisters and my wonderful children that have been there to help me and support me in my journey.
I am reading a wonderful book called "Love is letting go of Fear". According to the author there is only two emotions that of Love or of Fear. To love unconditionally brings love to us. Instead of being a fault finder we should be a Love finder. Look for the love in others and we will find love for ourselves. This book has made a great impression on my life and how I see things. I wonder sometimes why it has taken so long for these things to come to me. Hopefully I can live long enough to see the changes I want to make in my life and help others to find these truths before they get to be my age. Wouldn't it be wonderful if our children and grandchildren could know these truths and not make the mistakes that it has taken us to discover true happiness. I am thankful for life and the health that I have, for the things I have learned in my life. I am thankful for my experiences and look at them as stepping stones to something greater. I am thankful that Heavenly Father blessed me, to give birth to seven wonderful and healthy children. They have been a blessing in my life and taught me a lot. I am thankful for being born into a wonderful family with the best brothers and sisters that anyone could have. They have loved and supported me in my choices and sometimes in spite of my choices of life. Heavenly Father is so wonderful in blessing us and loving us unconditionally. I feel very blessed today. I hope that you count your blessings, it will improve your life.
I am reading a wonderful book called "Love is letting go of Fear". According to the author there is only two emotions that of Love or of Fear. To love unconditionally brings love to us. Instead of being a fault finder we should be a Love finder. Look for the love in others and we will find love for ourselves. This book has made a great impression on my life and how I see things. I wonder sometimes why it has taken so long for these things to come to me. Hopefully I can live long enough to see the changes I want to make in my life and help others to find these truths before they get to be my age. Wouldn't it be wonderful if our children and grandchildren could know these truths and not make the mistakes that it has taken us to discover true happiness. I am thankful for life and the health that I have, for the things I have learned in my life. I am thankful for my experiences and look at them as stepping stones to something greater. I am thankful that Heavenly Father blessed me, to give birth to seven wonderful and healthy children. They have been a blessing in my life and taught me a lot. I am thankful for being born into a wonderful family with the best brothers and sisters that anyone could have. They have loved and supported me in my choices and sometimes in spite of my choices of life. Heavenly Father is so wonderful in blessing us and loving us unconditionally. I feel very blessed today. I hope that you count your blessings, it will improve your life.
Saturday, August 6, 2011
In June I went to the doctor I weighed 299 pounds, my blood sugar A1C was 9, My blood pressure was 145/92, the only thing that I liked was the weight drop. The doctors didn't like any of it. I was put on Glipazide and metformin for sugar levels and I was put on a blood pressure medication. I was also told that I had cancer. A lot to digest in one fell swoop. I have gone the doctor route and it has cost me a lot of money and the bills are still coming in. I have chosen to not have surgery and go a natural route.
This is the sixth day of a 30 day cleanse. It has been a adventure. Some of the things that I am taking are not to bad others are down right nasty. Those that are really nasty is Burdock root and Chaparral, both good for cancer. Each day I have improved in administering the tinctures and teas. I have chosen to eat two meals but just raw veggies or fruit. Raw Cauliflower is so delicious. I eat until I am full. You know how your mom always told you to chew your food 30 times before you swallowed. It works with raw food. However yesterday I cheated, I made a big salad and put one tablespoon of ranch dressing on it and made me two pieces of toast with butter. Toast has never tasted so good and the dressing was Divine.
Today I start again. This morning I weighed 283.8, my blood pressure was 112/76 and my blood sugar was 143. My doctor wants my A1C to 7 or under, so I asked him what range that would be on my blood meter. He said between 140-160, I am in the low range and maybe by the time I go see him again it will be around 100 which is normal. I am excited and when I get discouraged these kind of results help me to be determined to go on.
Thank you everyone for your prayers in my behalf I know that they are what give me strength and buoy me up when I get down. Thank you so very much for being my friends and supporting me. Love to all.
This is the sixth day of a 30 day cleanse. It has been a adventure. Some of the things that I am taking are not to bad others are down right nasty. Those that are really nasty is Burdock root and Chaparral, both good for cancer. Each day I have improved in administering the tinctures and teas. I have chosen to eat two meals but just raw veggies or fruit. Raw Cauliflower is so delicious. I eat until I am full. You know how your mom always told you to chew your food 30 times before you swallowed. It works with raw food. However yesterday I cheated, I made a big salad and put one tablespoon of ranch dressing on it and made me two pieces of toast with butter. Toast has never tasted so good and the dressing was Divine.
Today I start again. This morning I weighed 283.8, my blood pressure was 112/76 and my blood sugar was 143. My doctor wants my A1C to 7 or under, so I asked him what range that would be on my blood meter. He said between 140-160, I am in the low range and maybe by the time I go see him again it will be around 100 which is normal. I am excited and when I get discouraged these kind of results help me to be determined to go on.
Thank you everyone for your prayers in my behalf I know that they are what give me strength and buoy me up when I get down. Thank you so very much for being my friends and supporting me. Love to all.
Monday, August 1, 2011
1st Day of cleanse
Today I started my 30 day detox and cleanse. Interesting so far. We will see how this goes. I will have to handle it one day at a time. The skin brushing is not bad. The hot and cold shower is okay. I just jump a little when the cold water hits. The Liver flush is 8 oz orange juice, 8 oz water, 1 clove of garlic, l inch of ginger root and 1 tablespoon of olive oil blended, not bad. The next is a tea with 2 dropperful of liver and gall bladder tincture. This is not good tasting. I think that it is the tincture that is nasty. It makes you look forward to the juice that you get to drink later. I have four more cups of tea to drink before the end of the day. I also have to drink four more eight ounce glasses of water. I think I will be staying close to the bathroom.
I will keep you informed each day how I am doing. It says that I can eat but just raw veggies and fruit. At this rate I don't think that I will eat much. If I get real hungry I think I will try a isagenix shake. If this works it will be well worth it. I just have to have faith and think positive thoughts. I know Heavenly Father can heal me and help me through what ever comes. I want to thank you all for your faith and prayers for me. Have a great day everyone.
I will keep you informed each day how I am doing. It says that I can eat but just raw veggies and fruit. At this rate I don't think that I will eat much. If I get real hungry I think I will try a isagenix shake. If this works it will be well worth it. I just have to have faith and think positive thoughts. I know Heavenly Father can heal me and help me through what ever comes. I want to thank you all for your faith and prayers for me. Have a great day everyone.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
My new journey
Today is my gathering day. I have been gathering the herbs, tinctures, and foods to start a 30 day detox and cleanse. I will be starting on Monday. I have been doing some of the things like the hot and cold water therapy for a week now. This is done by taking your shower in the morning, just before you turn the water off turn it to cold water and spend 30 seconds and then turn it back to hot. You do this seven times ending with cold water. You may gasp, scream or yell when the cold water hits. You also take a shower just before bed only this time you end with hot water and go to bed. It helps you sleep better. While you are doing this treatment make sure that you concentrate on your dis-eased areas. I gasp each time the cold water hits me. I feel great, I think better and feel more energetic. I do sleep better and deeper at night.
I have realized that this new journey will take most of my day. It will be spent making and taking herb teas, making sure that my bowels are working well so I can rid my body of the toxins. I will also be spending time meditating and reading positive books, articles and my scriptures. If any of you want to send me positive and uplifting things I would love to read them. This blog will be a record of the things that I am doing, how I am feeling, and what results I see. I do not look forward to telling my doctors of my decisions. I am going to tell them because of the problem that my weight will cause which ever style of operation I choose I want to take the time and lose more weight. We will then see what happens. I am confident that there will be no need of surgery. Once again Thank You to all my family and friends that are there for me. I love you very very much. Have a wonderful day everyone stay happy and healthy.
I have realized that this new journey will take most of my day. It will be spent making and taking herb teas, making sure that my bowels are working well so I can rid my body of the toxins. I will also be spending time meditating and reading positive books, articles and my scriptures. If any of you want to send me positive and uplifting things I would love to read them. This blog will be a record of the things that I am doing, how I am feeling, and what results I see. I do not look forward to telling my doctors of my decisions. I am going to tell them because of the problem that my weight will cause which ever style of operation I choose I want to take the time and lose more weight. We will then see what happens. I am confident that there will be no need of surgery. Once again Thank You to all my family and friends that are there for me. I love you very very much. Have a wonderful day everyone stay happy and healthy.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Life's strange turns #2
My dear friends,
A lot of things have happened this past few weeks. Dr. Gibb talked to me about a hysterectomy and told me that there was two options. He also told me that he would schedule a cat scan. Since this is new for me I had no idea what was in store for me. For the cat scan I had to drink some stuff and then when they gave me the scan they put a needle in My arm and put dye in my body. One was for the intestines and the other was for the veins. The one for the veins made me all hot worse than any hot flash that I have ever had. Dr. Gibb told me that it look good but he was going to have Dr. Couschene go over it with me. I am then told that they don't know if my heart and lungs can take being on my head for thee hours. When I asked why I would have to be on my head they said that is how the robotic surgery is done. When Dr. Couschene talked to me he said that the scan showed that I had calcium build up around the arteries of my heart. They weren't sure if that was ssomething to worry about or just old age. My weight is also a issue either route I take. Robotically it would make it difficult to do. Traditionally there would be a eighteen inch incision and they is a great chance of infection. All of this makes one real anxious to take this step right.
While all of this is going on with the Doctors, other things are happening in my life. I find a book called "There are no Incurables" by a Dr. Schultz. It is a cleanse that helps your body get rid of "incurable dis-eases". I am iimpressed and feel good about this. My son Kyle brings me a book about the same time called "Quantum Healing" by Deepak Chopra, M.D. Have you every read two books at one time, well that is what I am doing. My son Cory calls me to see how I am doing. I tell him that I am leaning towards taking care of this naturally. He is very supportive and tells me that my friend Shirlynn is coming up to see me. Yesterday Shirlynn came to see me and tell me about her experiences with Ovarian cancer. She was told that she had cancer after having six children and that she would die if she didn't have it operated on. She choose to handle it naturally and went on to have more children. I feel good about trying to handle this battle naturally. I feel that Heavenly Father has led me to all this information. D & C 42:43 " And whosoever among you are sick, and have not faith t be healed, but believe, shall be nourished with all tenderness, with herbs and mild food, and that not by the hand of an enemy. D & C 42:44 " And the elders of the church, two or more, shall be called, and shall pray for and lay their hands upon them in my name; and if they die they shall die unto me, and if they live they shall live unto me." This scripture has given me great strength and the desire to put the Lord at his word. I believe that I still have a long life to live and a mission to full fill. Since I have made this choice there have been many that have showed up in my life with very negative reactions to my choices. They make me appreciate my friends and family that are supportive of my choices. They keep me in their prayers, they encourage me along the way and bless me. I am blessed to have such wonderful people that love and support me. I am going to use this blog as a on going journal of my journey into health and happiness. I love the LORD and knows that he loves me and will bless me. I love you all.
A lot of things have happened this past few weeks. Dr. Gibb talked to me about a hysterectomy and told me that there was two options. He also told me that he would schedule a cat scan. Since this is new for me I had no idea what was in store for me. For the cat scan I had to drink some stuff and then when they gave me the scan they put a needle in My arm and put dye in my body. One was for the intestines and the other was for the veins. The one for the veins made me all hot worse than any hot flash that I have ever had. Dr. Gibb told me that it look good but he was going to have Dr. Couschene go over it with me. I am then told that they don't know if my heart and lungs can take being on my head for thee hours. When I asked why I would have to be on my head they said that is how the robotic surgery is done. When Dr. Couschene talked to me he said that the scan showed that I had calcium build up around the arteries of my heart. They weren't sure if that was ssomething to worry about or just old age. My weight is also a issue either route I take. Robotically it would make it difficult to do. Traditionally there would be a eighteen inch incision and they is a great chance of infection. All of this makes one real anxious to take this step right.
While all of this is going on with the Doctors, other things are happening in my life. I find a book called "There are no Incurables" by a Dr. Schultz. It is a cleanse that helps your body get rid of "incurable dis-eases". I am iimpressed and feel good about this. My son Kyle brings me a book about the same time called "Quantum Healing" by Deepak Chopra, M.D. Have you every read two books at one time, well that is what I am doing. My son Cory calls me to see how I am doing. I tell him that I am leaning towards taking care of this naturally. He is very supportive and tells me that my friend Shirlynn is coming up to see me. Yesterday Shirlynn came to see me and tell me about her experiences with Ovarian cancer. She was told that she had cancer after having six children and that she would die if she didn't have it operated on. She choose to handle it naturally and went on to have more children. I feel good about trying to handle this battle naturally. I feel that Heavenly Father has led me to all this information. D & C 42:43 " And whosoever among you are sick, and have not faith t be healed, but believe, shall be nourished with all tenderness, with herbs and mild food, and that not by the hand of an enemy. D & C 42:44 " And the elders of the church, two or more, shall be called, and shall pray for and lay their hands upon them in my name; and if they die they shall die unto me, and if they live they shall live unto me." This scripture has given me great strength and the desire to put the Lord at his word. I believe that I still have a long life to live and a mission to full fill. Since I have made this choice there have been many that have showed up in my life with very negative reactions to my choices. They make me appreciate my friends and family that are supportive of my choices. They keep me in their prayers, they encourage me along the way and bless me. I am blessed to have such wonderful people that love and support me. I am going to use this blog as a on going journal of my journey into health and happiness. I love the LORD and knows that he loves me and will bless me. I love you all.
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Life's strange turns
Well dear ones it has been awhile since I wrote. In May I went to Salt Lake and spent some time with my mother, while my sisters went to Washington D.C. My sister Darla was giving a speech on preserving records at a convention. When they got home I spent another week and half with them. I then went to my son Cory's place as my dear angel Olivia had invited me to her baptism.
While in Salt Lake I found it hard to stay on my program. It seems to me that most members of my family like to make connections and bond with one another through the medium of food. Food brings good memories and comfort. It brings memories of happy times. I was invited out to eat alot and visit with people. I know that stress will help you gain weight so I decided to just enjoy my time and the wonderful company that was around me. When I got home I would start over again. I gained eight pounds the three weeks I was in Utah. As of today I have lost five of those pounds. It has been hard to get back into my routine.
About a year ago I started having periods again. While in Utah I had some real blood loss and clots on two different occasions. It was embarrassing because I had to tell people what was going on with me and I didn't want anyone to know. I came home and went to see a OBY-GN. She called me yesterday and informed me that I had uterine cancer. I was in tears most of the day. I called my children and my sisters. They have been a great support and have given me lots of encouragement. My head tells me to be positive and I know that is true. My heart is sad and fearful of the unknown. I would appreciate everyone and their prayers. I know that Heavenly Father is the great physician. He can accomplish anything. I need to have more faith and trust in him. I have been reading "Feelings Buried Alive Never Die" the feelings and emotions connected with this condition is repressed anger. I have had alot of anger in my life and I have a master's degree in repression of feelings. I feel like I have come along way in the last few years, just not far enough I guess. Some of my angry feelings go way back and they are buried so deep that I don't remember them anymore. I am not sure how to handle them or resolve them. I believe that forgiveness is the key. I am having a struggle knowing how to forgive in your heart. It is one thing to say I forgive and mean it in your head and another to feel it in your heart. It is the heart part that I struggle with. In my past when I have been angry, sad or felt used instead of expressing my feeling (because I didn't know how) and resolving those feelings I buried the deep in hopes that they would go away and everything would be alright. You can do that mentally but the body records everything and if it isn't resolved it causes dis-ease. I have lived sixty four years and have just learned this in the last few years. I hope that it doesn't take as long to resolve things as it has taken for me to learn things.
I have a appointment with a Dr. Gibb to discuss a hysterectomy. I know that plenty of women have had this proceedure and everything has gone okay. I have never had surgery of any kind before and it is scary for me. I don't have much trust in doctors and drugs. I wish that I could talk to my Heavenly Father face to face and get his advice.
I am going to start back on my isagenix program, get control of diabetes and blood pressure, be more prayerful and stay close to my Heavenly Father. I am his child and he loves me and is the only one that truly knows my heart.
I will keep you informed and I appreciate your prayers in my behalf. There is strength in numbers.
While in Salt Lake I found it hard to stay on my program. It seems to me that most members of my family like to make connections and bond with one another through the medium of food. Food brings good memories and comfort. It brings memories of happy times. I was invited out to eat alot and visit with people. I know that stress will help you gain weight so I decided to just enjoy my time and the wonderful company that was around me. When I got home I would start over again. I gained eight pounds the three weeks I was in Utah. As of today I have lost five of those pounds. It has been hard to get back into my routine.
About a year ago I started having periods again. While in Utah I had some real blood loss and clots on two different occasions. It was embarrassing because I had to tell people what was going on with me and I didn't want anyone to know. I came home and went to see a OBY-GN. She called me yesterday and informed me that I had uterine cancer. I was in tears most of the day. I called my children and my sisters. They have been a great support and have given me lots of encouragement. My head tells me to be positive and I know that is true. My heart is sad and fearful of the unknown. I would appreciate everyone and their prayers. I know that Heavenly Father is the great physician. He can accomplish anything. I need to have more faith and trust in him. I have been reading "Feelings Buried Alive Never Die" the feelings and emotions connected with this condition is repressed anger. I have had alot of anger in my life and I have a master's degree in repression of feelings. I feel like I have come along way in the last few years, just not far enough I guess. Some of my angry feelings go way back and they are buried so deep that I don't remember them anymore. I am not sure how to handle them or resolve them. I believe that forgiveness is the key. I am having a struggle knowing how to forgive in your heart. It is one thing to say I forgive and mean it in your head and another to feel it in your heart. It is the heart part that I struggle with. In my past when I have been angry, sad or felt used instead of expressing my feeling (because I didn't know how) and resolving those feelings I buried the deep in hopes that they would go away and everything would be alright. You can do that mentally but the body records everything and if it isn't resolved it causes dis-ease. I have lived sixty four years and have just learned this in the last few years. I hope that it doesn't take as long to resolve things as it has taken for me to learn things.
I have a appointment with a Dr. Gibb to discuss a hysterectomy. I know that plenty of women have had this proceedure and everything has gone okay. I have never had surgery of any kind before and it is scary for me. I don't have much trust in doctors and drugs. I wish that I could talk to my Heavenly Father face to face and get his advice.
I am going to start back on my isagenix program, get control of diabetes and blood pressure, be more prayerful and stay close to my Heavenly Father. I am his child and he loves me and is the only one that truly knows my heart.
I will keep you informed and I appreciate your prayers in my behalf. There is strength in numbers.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
guardian Angels
My dear friends some things happen in our lives that let us know that we are not here alone and that others are watching out for us. I don't know if you believe in guardian angels but I do. I have had many experiences in life that let me know that they are there. I believe that these guardian angels are my family that are on the other side of the veil and here on this earth. My most recent experience was Sunday when I received a phone call telling me that my son Cory was in the hospital with a crushed arm, because a sling at work hit him. I was not sure what a sling was. My son Cory works at Kennecott for a company drilling for water. The water needs to be released so that the mountain doesn't cave in. One hour before he got off shift the sling which carries pipe from one place to another broke and sent a pipe crashing to the ground. Cory and two other men ran for their lives. About 30 or 40 feet out Cory stopped to see if the other men were safe. The sling had also broke loose and was headed for him. He raised his arm to stop it from hitting him in the face. It knocked him down and his arm was broken. The sling weighs 1200 pounds. They took him to the hospital and had hi8m on a morphine drip most of the day. When they took a x ray the bone in his forearm was a clean break but was sticking out of the skin. The arm was not crushed. The doctor could not believe that he was there with just a broken arm. He said that Cory should be dead with that kind of a accident. I feel that my father and his family on the other side was there protecting my son.
I also had angels here that attended my son when I could not be there. I called my brothers to go and give him a blessing. They dropped what ever they had going on in their lives to go and give my son a blessing. My sisters and mother went to the hospital to be there for Cory and be a comfort to Melanie. They made several phone calls to keep me informed of what was happening. I am blessed to have such wonderful angels that watch out for me and mine.
One thing that this has taught me is that we should be ever mindful of our loved ones and appreciate them every day. Some times we get caught up with life and don't realize how fragile it is. To my children, my brothers and my sisters I want you to know how very much I love you and I am very thankful that you are part of my life. I appreciate everything that you do for me and the love that you show to me. I am blessed more than anyone else to have such a wonderful family. To my mother Thank you so very much for giving me life and teaching me the things I needed to know to be a good person and a responsible citizen in society. You taught me things that I thought everyone was taught and had learned. I grew up and found that most people don,t know how to clean house, organize things or keep order in their lives. Most people never learned common sense or the talent for helping others. You taught me about love and the importance of family. Thank you for being my mother and always loving me.
I have probably rambled on and not been able to really convey what my heart feels, I do however want you all to know that my heart is so full of love for each and everyone of you. Thanks for being part of my life.
I also had angels here that attended my son when I could not be there. I called my brothers to go and give him a blessing. They dropped what ever they had going on in their lives to go and give my son a blessing. My sisters and mother went to the hospital to be there for Cory and be a comfort to Melanie. They made several phone calls to keep me informed of what was happening. I am blessed to have such wonderful angels that watch out for me and mine.
One thing that this has taught me is that we should be ever mindful of our loved ones and appreciate them every day. Some times we get caught up with life and don't realize how fragile it is. To my children, my brothers and my sisters I want you to know how very much I love you and I am very thankful that you are part of my life. I appreciate everything that you do for me and the love that you show to me. I am blessed more than anyone else to have such a wonderful family. To my mother Thank you so very much for giving me life and teaching me the things I needed to know to be a good person and a responsible citizen in society. You taught me things that I thought everyone was taught and had learned. I grew up and found that most people don,t know how to clean house, organize things or keep order in their lives. Most people never learned common sense or the talent for helping others. You taught me about love and the importance of family. Thank you for being my mother and always loving me.
I have probably rambled on and not been able to really convey what my heart feels, I do however want you all to know that my heart is so full of love for each and everyone of you. Thanks for being part of my life.
Friday, March 25, 2011
Back to the program
Wednesday I started back to water aerobics. It was great. It feels good to be in the water again, I felt a little off balance but I am sure that it will come back to me. It was a good workout and I didn't realize how sore one could be. Before Winter came I was going nine times a week. I realized quickly that I will have to ease into this all over again. I quit going because where I live is in the mountains and when it snows it is deep and the ice stays for along time. My class is at 6:00 A.M. and I didn't want to get up earlier and shovel snow and ice off my car that early in the morning. I was also concerned because the last three years I have fallen six times on the snow ans ice. It then takes me awhile to recover from the falls, I didn't feel that I wanted to deal with that this year. I wanted to be able to exercise and get around.
When I first started water aerobics I had trouble balancing in the three feet, and you couldn't get me in the five feet because I felt as if I had no control over my body. When I was young I lived at the swimming pool every summer. It had been so long since I had been swimming that I didn't dare swim across the pool. Now I like the five feet end and I have learned to swim again and quite enjoy it. I can accomplish all sorts of exercise in the water that is other wise hard on land. The key to balance in the water I found is to have good core control which I had none of when I started. When you have good core control you stand taller, you have better posture and there isn't so much weight pull on your back.
It is hard to tell you what a different person I am today than I was eighteen months ago. I have not only changed physically, my biggest change I feel has been mentally and the knowledge that anything is possible. My attitude about life, what I can accomplish, where I am going, and especially who I am is totally different. I am working on my goals of health and along with that comes the possibilities of greatness. It might take me a little longer but I WILL MAKE IT to the top.
I hope that you all have a terrific day and the blessing of the Lord will be upon you today. He is our strength and has all the answers to all our questions. Have a wonderful day.
When I first started water aerobics I had trouble balancing in the three feet, and you couldn't get me in the five feet because I felt as if I had no control over my body. When I was young I lived at the swimming pool every summer. It had been so long since I had been swimming that I didn't dare swim across the pool. Now I like the five feet end and I have learned to swim again and quite enjoy it. I can accomplish all sorts of exercise in the water that is other wise hard on land. The key to balance in the water I found is to have good core control which I had none of when I started. When you have good core control you stand taller, you have better posture and there isn't so much weight pull on your back.
It is hard to tell you what a different person I am today than I was eighteen months ago. I have not only changed physically, my biggest change I feel has been mentally and the knowledge that anything is possible. My attitude about life, what I can accomplish, where I am going, and especially who I am is totally different. I am working on my goals of health and along with that comes the possibilities of greatness. It might take me a little longer but I WILL MAKE IT to the top.
I hope that you all have a terrific day and the blessing of the Lord will be upon you today. He is our strength and has all the answers to all our questions. Have a wonderful day.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
2nd chapter in Weight Loss Journey
Well here goes the continuing chapter. When we left off I told you about my experience of buying new clothes but I don't know if I conveyed the thrill of being able to buy at a store like Walmart. Up until this time I had bought my clothes at Dahle's big and tall (until they went out of business). When you buy clothes for big people they are very expensive just for a blouse. I could spend a hundred dollars and just get one outfit. When I went to walmart I walked out with seven blouses and a purse and just spent ninety-five dollars. I was on top of the world.
When I started this journey I was seeing a doctor for diabetes and on his scale I weighed 350 pounds. At home I only had a scale that weighted up to 300 pounds. I never knew what my true weight was when I stepped on the scale. Get a new scale would be the simple solution right. I was spending the extra money I had to buy product so I couldn't afford a new scale. I had joined Isa Body challenge and guessed at my weight according to where the needle on the scale was. I figured that I had lost almost 50 pounds in the first seven months. I decided that it wasn't enough to win the challenge so I didn't finish turning in the before and after pictures, because others before me had lost a whole lot more.
In March 2010 I started water aerobics. This was a form of exercise that I could do and I really enjoyed . The class was at 6 a.m. Monday Thur Friday. It was hard to get up at 5 every morning, get ready and get there by 6, but it was something I loved.
In about May 2010 I hit a plateau, and it didn't seem to matter what I did the needle just didn't move off of 300 pounds. I was getting discouraged and just knew that I wouldn't make it under three hundred pounds. My brother, sisters, daughter and son kept encouraging me to stick with the program. They kept telling me that I was gaining muscle and that weighs more than fat. I knew that in theory but had a hard time accepting it. This went on for four months. In August 2010 I went to Salt Lake to a Isagenix convention and met Jim and Kathy Coover and lots of friendly and wonderful people. DeeWayne, Mashell, Darla and I decided to join the Isa Body challenge again. We weighed at Mashell and Darla,s and I was shocked because I weighed 311 pounds and here I thought I was 300. It was so hard for me to lose weight and I had so much to lose that I got depressed when I realized I had eleven more pounds than I thought to lose.
I came home and started on a 9 day back to back cleanse. I found that it was very hard on me as I couldn't keep my sugar levels up on the second day of the cleanse. I only finished the 9 day cleanse. I have since found out that you can take the snacks provided with the program and that will help keep sugar levels where they need to be. You can also take your fruits and greens on those days. I was just taking the cleanse and water for those two days.
In February 2011 I went and bought me a digital scale that weighs, measures body fat and bone density. It was amazing when I stepped on it and I weighted 298 pounds. I was so pleased that since September 2010 I had lost 13 pounds. I went and bought me two blouses, a sweat suit for going to aerobics and a new pair of pants. Since I started this journey I have lost a total of 52 pounds and kept it off. Yeah, I am on my way again. I made it to under three hundred pounds. My next goal is 290 and when I reach it I will let you all know.
This journey is going to be amazing and I am looking forward to all the new things that I am going to learn and experience. Thanks to all my wonderful friends and family that have encouraged me and kept me going. I appreciate all your love. Thanks for joining me on my journey all my love.
When I started this journey I was seeing a doctor for diabetes and on his scale I weighed 350 pounds. At home I only had a scale that weighted up to 300 pounds. I never knew what my true weight was when I stepped on the scale. Get a new scale would be the simple solution right. I was spending the extra money I had to buy product so I couldn't afford a new scale. I had joined Isa Body challenge and guessed at my weight according to where the needle on the scale was. I figured that I had lost almost 50 pounds in the first seven months. I decided that it wasn't enough to win the challenge so I didn't finish turning in the before and after pictures, because others before me had lost a whole lot more.
In March 2010 I started water aerobics. This was a form of exercise that I could do and I really enjoyed . The class was at 6 a.m. Monday Thur Friday. It was hard to get up at 5 every morning, get ready and get there by 6, but it was something I loved.
In about May 2010 I hit a plateau, and it didn't seem to matter what I did the needle just didn't move off of 300 pounds. I was getting discouraged and just knew that I wouldn't make it under three hundred pounds. My brother, sisters, daughter and son kept encouraging me to stick with the program. They kept telling me that I was gaining muscle and that weighs more than fat. I knew that in theory but had a hard time accepting it. This went on for four months. In August 2010 I went to Salt Lake to a Isagenix convention and met Jim and Kathy Coover and lots of friendly and wonderful people. DeeWayne, Mashell, Darla and I decided to join the Isa Body challenge again. We weighed at Mashell and Darla,s and I was shocked because I weighed 311 pounds and here I thought I was 300. It was so hard for me to lose weight and I had so much to lose that I got depressed when I realized I had eleven more pounds than I thought to lose.
I came home and started on a 9 day back to back cleanse. I found that it was very hard on me as I couldn't keep my sugar levels up on the second day of the cleanse. I only finished the 9 day cleanse. I have since found out that you can take the snacks provided with the program and that will help keep sugar levels where they need to be. You can also take your fruits and greens on those days. I was just taking the cleanse and water for those two days.
In February 2011 I went and bought me a digital scale that weighs, measures body fat and bone density. It was amazing when I stepped on it and I weighted 298 pounds. I was so pleased that since September 2010 I had lost 13 pounds. I went and bought me two blouses, a sweat suit for going to aerobics and a new pair of pants. Since I started this journey I have lost a total of 52 pounds and kept it off. Yeah, I am on my way again. I made it to under three hundred pounds. My next goal is 290 and when I reach it I will let you all know.
This journey is going to be amazing and I am looking forward to all the new things that I am going to learn and experience. Thanks to all my wonderful friends and family that have encouraged me and kept me going. I appreciate all your love. Thanks for joining me on my journey all my love.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Weight Loss Journey
In March of 2008 I was involved in an auto accident. I was taken to the hospital and there I find out that I had diabetes. When I recieved my hospital records the doctor had put that I was morbidly obese. I knew I had put on some weight through the years and that I was counsidered fat, but morbidly obese. This hurt my feelings and I was determined to do something about it. However after I was sent home I was in bed for two months because of the accident. When I could get up things just didn't work as well so I put off exercising.
In November I had the priviledge of going to Hawaii with my sisters and my mom. I was having trouble walking but I went anyway because I didn't know if I would ever get a chance like this again. Hawaii was fun except the trouble I had walking. When we went to the Culture Center I had to rent a wheelchair and my sisters took turns pushing me. I was so embarressed and felt bad that they had to spend their vacation pushing me around. I really appreciated their sweetness to me.
In 2009 my son started teaching a class on creating the life that we wanted instead of accepting the life that was just taking place. I have learned so many things and maybe at a latter date I will tell you some of the things I learned. One thing that I learned was I had the power to create what ever it is I wanted. However how to go about it was a little harder to learn. I found that a lot of my weight gain dealt with a lot of emotions that I had stuffed through the years. Reaching down and dealing with them was tough for me and sometimes painful. Kyle helped me through and I felt that I was the child and he was the parent when it should have been the other way around. I felt that I should have learned these things earlier in life and should be teaching them to my children I am just thankful that this knowledge came my way no matter the source.
In September of 2009 I went to Salt Lake for my mother's 85th Birthday. My sister told me that we were going to have family pictures taken so I needed to have a nice outfit. My daughter and I went to Lane Bryant where they sell clothes for large women. I went in and tried many dresses, skirts, and blouses on and could't find any that fit. I was so devastated that I walked out and did nothing but cry all the way to Spanish Fork. I was so upset with myself that I had allowed myself to get that big and I just wanted to give up and die. I decided that I wouldn't be in the pictures because I would just ruin them. My sister Mashell helped me create a nice pants outfit between what I had and she had. I did have pictures taken but was ver self concious.
When we got back to Mashell's place I told her how devastated I was and that I was going to find away no matter how much it cost to lose this weight. She told me about Isagenix and we signed me up right then. The sad part about this is my brother had tried before to get me to sign up in Isagenix and all I saw was another MLM and I was tired of MLM's I think I had joined almost everyone out there and felt they were a waste of time. Sorry DeeWayne. When I got home to Montana and recieved my product I read everything that dcame with it so I could do this program right. I did a nine day cleanse back to back. I was so excited at the thirteen pounds that I lost. However I wondered if this weight would stay off. I did continue to lose weight.
In March of 2010 My sister, Mashell and brother, DeeWayne came up to help me with the business end of Isagenix. By this time I had lost 30 pounds. When they walked in they were amazed at how baggy my clothes were fitting. They told me that I needed some new clothes. I told them that I hadn't lost all the weight that I wanted to yet. I told them that we diden't have a Dahle's or Lane Bryants here so I couldn't. They insisted that we go shopping at Walmart. I knew that there was nothing there for someone my size. When we walked into Walmart Mashell and Colleen took off by the time I reached them they had a basket full of clothers to try on. I was shocked and surprised when a 3X fit me. I was able to get seven new tops and was so excited that I could fit a 3X, before this time I had been wearing a 6X or bigger depending on the style. I had lost 3 dress sizes and walking on cloud nine.
Well that finish's chapter one in my journey so stay tune for chapter two coming your way soon. Love to all
In November I had the priviledge of going to Hawaii with my sisters and my mom. I was having trouble walking but I went anyway because I didn't know if I would ever get a chance like this again. Hawaii was fun except the trouble I had walking. When we went to the Culture Center I had to rent a wheelchair and my sisters took turns pushing me. I was so embarressed and felt bad that they had to spend their vacation pushing me around. I really appreciated their sweetness to me.
In 2009 my son started teaching a class on creating the life that we wanted instead of accepting the life that was just taking place. I have learned so many things and maybe at a latter date I will tell you some of the things I learned. One thing that I learned was I had the power to create what ever it is I wanted. However how to go about it was a little harder to learn. I found that a lot of my weight gain dealt with a lot of emotions that I had stuffed through the years. Reaching down and dealing with them was tough for me and sometimes painful. Kyle helped me through and I felt that I was the child and he was the parent when it should have been the other way around. I felt that I should have learned these things earlier in life and should be teaching them to my children I am just thankful that this knowledge came my way no matter the source.
In September of 2009 I went to Salt Lake for my mother's 85th Birthday. My sister told me that we were going to have family pictures taken so I needed to have a nice outfit. My daughter and I went to Lane Bryant where they sell clothes for large women. I went in and tried many dresses, skirts, and blouses on and could't find any that fit. I was so devastated that I walked out and did nothing but cry all the way to Spanish Fork. I was so upset with myself that I had allowed myself to get that big and I just wanted to give up and die. I decided that I wouldn't be in the pictures because I would just ruin them. My sister Mashell helped me create a nice pants outfit between what I had and she had. I did have pictures taken but was ver self concious.
When we got back to Mashell's place I told her how devastated I was and that I was going to find away no matter how much it cost to lose this weight. She told me about Isagenix and we signed me up right then. The sad part about this is my brother had tried before to get me to sign up in Isagenix and all I saw was another MLM and I was tired of MLM's I think I had joined almost everyone out there and felt they were a waste of time. Sorry DeeWayne. When I got home to Montana and recieved my product I read everything that dcame with it so I could do this program right. I did a nine day cleanse back to back. I was so excited at the thirteen pounds that I lost. However I wondered if this weight would stay off. I did continue to lose weight.
In March of 2010 My sister, Mashell and brother, DeeWayne came up to help me with the business end of Isagenix. By this time I had lost 30 pounds. When they walked in they were amazed at how baggy my clothes were fitting. They told me that I needed some new clothes. I told them that I hadn't lost all the weight that I wanted to yet. I told them that we diden't have a Dahle's or Lane Bryants here so I couldn't. They insisted that we go shopping at Walmart. I knew that there was nothing there for someone my size. When we walked into Walmart Mashell and Colleen took off by the time I reached them they had a basket full of clothers to try on. I was shocked and surprised when a 3X fit me. I was able to get seven new tops and was so excited that I could fit a 3X, before this time I had been wearing a 6X or bigger depending on the style. I had lost 3 dress sizes and walking on cloud nine.
Well that finish's chapter one in my journey so stay tune for chapter two coming your way soon. Love to all
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
My beginings
I am starting new in life, I am learning to blog. I never grew up learning to use computers, so this phase of my life has been interesting. There are so many things to learn and take in that it makes life so exciting and interesting. I look at life as a journey. In life we go places, see things and experience things. Some of them are are great and wonderful and some of them are difficult, trying, and bring us heartaches. All these experiences teach us and help us to grow and become better people. I don't feel to have trials in life I have challenges and opportunities to learn. This has taken me years to learn and I am grateful that I have learned these things because some don't learn it at all in their lives. We are in charge of our own lives and what ever choices we make today will give us the life we will have tomorrow. One of my favorite sayings goes like this: There is no chance, no fate, no destiny, that can circumvent, hinder or control the firm resolve of a determined soul. I try to repeat this every day so that I can face what ever the day brings to me. Sometimes it works better than other days. Well here I go jumping off at a new starting point of my life, we will see what it will be like. Love to all of you.
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